Wednesday, March 29, 2006
Just now in school got this bunch of people catching students to do survey. And i kena caught, along wif hua and ric. I thought was some small quick survey. End up wasted like 15mins of my time answering questions...
Some silly but damn long survey about my ideas of er... relationship/dating/marriage/opportunities to date. Yeah.. Got so many topics, so confirm damn long. And i was laughing throughout the whole survey, cos i know hua and ric answers will prolly be similiar to mine.
But i must say i'm not active in activities organised by hall, school and everything else. Joined nothing, did nothing for the past few years.
A part of the survery went like this:
Guy: Why is it that you didnt take part in activities like FOC intially?
Me: No interest
Guy: What do you feel about it now?
Me: Regret!
Then that guy got this very stunned face. After that it went downhill. All the questions very piercing one, and they ask down to the very last detail...
For example:
Guy: Which activities have you taken part in?
*whips out a large paper with like 20+ activites organised by school and the likes.
Me: *scans thru the entire list and finding nothing...
Me: *looks closely at every single activity listed, thinking that i might have missed out something i joined but missed on the list...
Me: * staring harder at the list, praying hard something appears...
1min later.....
Me: Er... I joined NONE.
Guy: *eye open wide wide
I is chi ru. Sian... -.-''
Recently i rediscovered that Wang Li Hong is very power. Last time i know he power liao. But then i think i forgot, so i rediscovered lor.
Kiss Goodbye is a power song. In his
盖世英雄 album one:
Lyrics:
Baby不要再哭泣
这一幕多么熟悉
紧握着你的手彼此都舍不得分离
每一次想开口但不如保持安静
给我一分钟专心
好好欣赏你的美
幸福搭配悲伤
痛是在我心交叉
挫折的眼泪不能测试爱的重量
付出的爱收不回
还欠你的我不能给
别把我心也带走 去跟随
每一次和你分开
深深的被你打败
每一次放弃你的温柔 痛苦难以释怀
每一次和你分开
每一次kiss you Goodbye
爱情的滋味此刻我终于最明白
幸福搭配悲伤
痛是在我心交叉
挫折的眼泪不能测试爱的重量
付出的爱收不回
但欠你的我不能给
我才明白爱最真实的滋味
每一次和你分开
深深的被你打败
每一次放弃你的温柔 痛苦难以释怀
每一次和你分开
每一次kiss you Goodbye
爱情的滋味此刻我终于最明白
我终于明白每一次和你分开
深深的被你打败
每一次放弃你的温柔 痛苦难以释怀
每一次和你分开
每一次kiss you Goodbye
爱情的滋味此刻我终于最明白
Monday, March 27, 2006
Weekends are forever busy. At least for now. Haha. Celebrated Alex's birthday at Oriental PartyWorld. Normal singing fare lar. The amazing part was got people can run off without paying the bill. Lucky e bill not i ta one. Me poor guy...
Lagi funny is we sing finish last song liao still dun wan to leave. Sit there play 'jit ba ban' thru Gerald's hp. Somemore can sing along with it. Heh!
Yesterday even more goot lat. Go bugis see kids play with water. Then wandered to esplanade to see those hip hop and bicycle stunt gang at the very wide open space. That space very hidden one. Noobs never heard of it before. So u dunno, u noob! Haha!
But then lucked out. No biker gang, no hip hop gang. Only got tamil gang. They playing tamil songs, dance tamil dance. I see a while sian liao. Turned around, see a group of bangalah ogoling at them. Very heong... They like very tiko like that. I half expected them to dance another tamil dance and join the group of girls. Heh...
Then at suntec, spotted this place got sell clay figurine one. You buy the figurine, then can paint it on the spot. Very steady. I small the time always paint this kind of figurine. But dunno why, it never got popular. Kids nowawdays very sad one. Only know PSP, Xbox. Simpler pleasures of life is lost on them. What happened to the gorli matches in sand, what happened to Pepsi Cola 1 2 3!!!
The figurine i painted is this snoopy figurine. Got very limited paint, so must use carefully. I started out with the rooftop. So confirm is red one ma.
Then the body of the house is brown one rite? So i told a certain someone to mix the brown colour out. First we mix red with yellow to form orange. Then you add a tinge of black to make it light brown. Then arh... This someone hor... Put one big lump of black into the orange and started mixing furiously. Guess what... The orange became 'da bian' colour. -.-''
Got so lousy at mixing colour one anot?? Haha...
End up, no more red. Cannot mix any more brown. Somemore make me not enuf red to paint finish the roof, must dilute the remaining red... Then arh, that certain someone said paint e body light blue... Paint finish liao, left only green colour. So bobian, all the doors hafta paint green.
I see the whole paintwork when its done. Still not so bad lar. Afterall i paint one leh. Budden. Some parts quite chui. But i know not i do one. So i relieved. HAHA!
Then got these cute kids see us paint see until very fascinated. Stand very close to observe the great masters at work. Then a couple of them started this conversation
Cute kid 1: Wa.. They paint very nice hor.
Cute kid 2: Yeah, very very nice.
Cute kid 1, cute kid 2, *eyes shine wide in admiration.
Woohoo... I power! Erm.. I mean. WE power! Haha... I LOVE kids!
Thursday, March 23, 2006
This week sucked as usual. Got reports due, lots of notes and tutorials left undone, quiz and got the damn 3011 project.
Notes and tutorials nv read and do is normal lar, i always never do one. But knn... The report i wanna do but cannot. Gotta go library. The cb HP tell me say the combo drive earliest is 30th then can get. Not 20th. now my lappy got nothing except wc3. How the hell can i do the damn report?
The tomorrow must hand in. Sibei chui....
Then later got the damn sus tech quiz. Lucky this time not a lot to read. Hopefully can pass. Lucky Hua very zai one, depend on him le. Hahaha.
Worse is 3011 project. How the hell they expect me to do the damn bridge? So many things to calculate, so many pictures to draw. Draw using bare hands i chui, draw using CAD i also chui. Either way also die. Sian max.
Then my angmoh tutor ask for a lot. I hear liao very scared. Worse, i see many people successfully doing it up. Then i look at my project, in small small pieces... Haven draw up a single piece of shit. Haven even started on hydraulics. Yesterday then i just started writing the damn intro. But write halfway, discover i writing rubbish...
Fuck la. I don't think i'm stupid one leh. How come still lose to others?
So many issues, no solutions. Actually got lar. That solution very obvious one. But i refusing to take that solution. Haha... If i stop playing, stop wasting my time doing nothing. Convert all this time to studying and completing the stuffs, easily can one lar. But its a very 'ku' solution. I don't like!
Last night got nightmare. I wake up believing it actually happened. Heong... I dreamt that i was playing games at home. Then one of my friends called me asking how i did for the exams. I was like "Huh, results out liao arh". So i went to check lor. Then i saw that i failed 3 subjects. 3011, 3001 and 3002.
Fail 3 subjects means i auto study 1 more sem in NTU liao. Then i felt a tinge of regret and sadness. Maybe, just maybe i should have worked harder. Why is it that i'm less motivated than others?
Monday, March 20, 2006
Finally got the paintball pics! Before the entire 'wargames' started, we took a 'family photo'. After this photos, friends became enemies and no mercy was spared in killing each other! Haha!
Its was Team CoC, Team Horsey and Team Mad. And I'm bigger than the biggest horsey. Heh!
Hereby, i shall show u a glimpse of my comrades and in arms. Richard, Hua, Melvin, Me. Horsey number 5 went missing right after the match. So you guys lucked out. Anyway i'm the biggest horsey and the man of the match lar. So why bother about anything else? Haha...
Big Horsey 'Ric' suffered a devastating neck shot, leaving him a big red lovebite. Power!
Here's Team CoC. They didnt put up much of a fight lar. But cannot blame them. Who wants to get shot? Its painful lor...
Here's Gerald, Toe, Hua and me. The game very shack. Hafta run a lot and do loads of evasive movement. See our sweat!
3SG Chee lead his team to victory, but by a mere scrap of luck cause we ran out of ammo. Haha. But then again, win is win, lose is lose. Congrats!
This paintball shit is fun! Injured, tired and sweating, but its still great! Who's game for paintball?
Sunday, March 19, 2006
This weekend's one of the funnest one for quite a long time liao. Had songs at Teo Heng on friday. Sound systems sucked, but for the price i'm paying, guess can't be too choosey huh. Haha..
Went for dinner and lan. Got smashed by the kids at e-games. Total humiliation that kind. Guess dota isn't exactly my forte either. Lol...
Went Dbl O with a couple of friends. Those retro guys really got it cultish. Got specific moves and actions for different songs at different times one.
This one wanna learn, gotta take forever that kind lo. Anyway, my dancing suck kinda big time. So cannot blame anyone lar. Haha...Lucky later on, RnB came on. This one i see Toe and a couple of other friends dance before. Mian qiang still can shake a little. HAHA!
Today best. Went to Orchid Country Club play paintball. ITS FUN! I spotted i kill a lot of people that kind. But Toe's team damn good. I admit their teamwork and marksmenship are superior lar. But not by a lot. Just enough to beat us by a hair's breadth!
Almost everyone injured lar. But its worth the while. I spotted i'm one of the least injured ones liao. Haha... A cut on my finger, grazed by a paintball. A shot on arm, and 2 on the leg. Totally couldn't feel it, until i saw the red marks.
Richard got one neck shot. He pain till, until now he still sore. Haha... Sian.. I got his neckshot pic. But stupid NTU/blogspot isn't allowing me to do the upload. Think i do it tomorrow or something!
Thursday, March 16, 2006
Recently momentum to study has started, but its chugging like a worn out train. Huffing and puffing to keep going. Sometimes even pausing for a rest. But guess its better than nothing...
Was watching tv just now. Saw this superstar thingy. 2 guys competing to be champions tt kind. Pity the pretty girl Alicia got kicked out. She has a sunshine smile. I like... Haha... Basically i like girls with a nice smile lar. Who doesn't?
Anyway, their acting not fantastic. And look kinda awkward on tv, to say the least. But who am i to criticize? Looking at myself, i barely have anything to be proud of.
But lets try to name several of my achievements, shall we?
1) Registered my 1,000,000,000 kill in dota a couple of days ago
2) 1 month to exams and i'm in the middle of nowhere
3) Manage to jog 1 round around the whole school without dying
4) Survived the harsh Singapore educational system to make it to NTU unscathed
5) Hmm... I can eat a whole pack of chips in 5mins
6) Uh.... I sleep 8 hours a day
7) Ah... I can fall asleep in lectures within 5mins
Woohoo... That's no easy feat to accomplish in a short 24 years alright. Gasp in awe at my unparalleled achievments! Haha... Beat that!
Just did some superhero test. They said i'm Green Lantern. Initially i hear liao i quite sad. I mean. WTF is GREEN LANTERN? He sounds weak... The Hua told me he damn powerful. Destroy the universe liao then recreate, no other superhero can stop him. Machiam God like that.
If he's so powerful, then i'll take the title of Green Lantern lar. But i'll change the damn title. Make it more sart ki.
Hmm... LordLantern sounds good. LL in short form... Or maybe Lord of Lanterns, abbre LoL? haha... Tough choice!
Monday, March 13, 2006
Finally got the damn lappy running. Thanks to Hua... He did like everything. Power! Thanks. Haha...
Come to think of it. If i lived in my world, i would probably have died long ago. Here comes an irony that just crossed my mind. If friends actually help you so much, irregardless of whether you are a fucker or not, why is it that friends get placed second the moment we get into a relationship?
I did this once, and lost a fair bit of friends. Lucky my bestest buddy never left. And after i lost this girl i loved so dearly, i hooked up with a bunch of great friends. Despite all the problems heaven has thrown at me, it never ill treated me. Blessed in a certain sense, and i'm grateful.
Just watched a Hyori mv. She's damn hot, she look damn slutty, and i damn like her. Muhahahaha!!!! I shall dispense with my generosity by sharing the link to you despos out there. Enjoy!
http://youtube.com/watch?v=PoMTOLVz00QAnd no more SHE. They have been on the charts for more than a week. And i should relax on my moves, no? I proudly present 第一个清晨.
Snippet of the lyrics:
这是爱
我们的爱
还不确定却好实
在把你贴在胸怀
静静的代替表白
才不愿放开
Sunday, March 12, 2006
Just got back from MOS. Want to recap the entire day, whilst i still can remember the details...
Woke up damn early to give tuition. A guy's got to eat, and at age 24, i rather not stretch out my hand to demand allowance from parents like a small kid. I live on my earnings. Period.
Went to the Suntec IT fair after that. The place was packed, but i enjoyed the company. The place was squeezy, but i didn't mind. Loads of hairy people were brushing their sweat soaked arms at me, and i didn't care. I didn't have a single bite since 7pm the previous day and i didn't care. It was fun, and it was fun.
Finally had my first bite of the day. In Swensons at about 5. Decent meal, but considering my fatigued state, anything woould probably have tasted nice. Haha... Tried to have fondue at Haagen Daz, but was told its like out of stock. And every other table had a fondue at their table. How is it that when its my turn, its Out Of STock!?!?!?!
Ended up with some melon ice crean in a melon. Was great. The taste was excellent and the scraping of melon flesh was fun. Haha... Caught a movie after that, and it sucked.
Date Movie. Funny at times, left me lost the rest of the other times. Wasn't the best show i've seen this year, but i enjoyed it. Prolly cause of the company too. haha...
Met Toe and Damien for MOS slightly after. Bought alcohol off the shelves at 7-11. How power! Had another 2 cups inside MOS. The place is big, and ambience was good. Anything with decent music, chicks and alcohol is always good. Lol...
As usual, the music sounded funny. RnB was like the only thing that sounded right. Even the crowd in there is right. The other rooms never appeared to be as happening.
In all, MOS is good. Guessed i was too worn out to totally enjoy the experience. And wasn't really in the mood lar.
I realised certain things today. People are wierd. I'm not willing to splurge on good stuffs for myself. But i willingly splurge it on others, on my hobbies and many other pointless things, without even batting an eyelid.
No regrets, but only a slight tinge of sadness, that things had to turn out this way. But i realise that it could be worse lor. Maybe things are meant to be this way, just like the lack of motivation my life.
Worse. My damn MMC card died on me today. Along with it, went my contacts and everything else. How bad can life get? First my lappy, now my hp. What's next? Throw your worst at me. I'll go down fighting. Basically there's not much left, no life, no hp, no lappy, not much friends, and definately no gf, so how bad can worst be?
Friday, March 10, 2006
My lappy chuized. HDD crashed in front of my face and i couldn't do anything about it. Okok... i admit i didn't treat it all that well. Never did maintenance, and neglected its welfare by keeping it on hours on the end, testing its limits. And it decided to die on me.
Retribution at its best. It took out the thing that has been bringing me ALL the entertainment, and forced me into obscurity. No msn, no movies, no dota, no golf, no nothing. Not even songs. How sad!
Now... To the repairs of my beloved lappy... There was no rescuing. The HDD died, crashed, burned. No recovery, no reformatting could be done to save it, despite my best efforts.
Went down to Hp service centre. Service was excellent, and i found no cause for complaints. Kudos to HP!
I took the hint from heaven that i've been a bad boy, so i took to a little studying and discovered i could do it. And could even squeeze like tv time... Enlightenment dawned. I CAN live without the damn laptop. But i still missed it.
But i suspect all the stuff in my lappy is gone. Its sad and painful, but i guess what's not meant to be never will be. Hai...
Monday, March 06, 2006
Weekend was cool. Went to pa pool and lan. Even went for supper. Had chilli crab and calamari for supper. Hmm.. Okok... There was beer too. Haha!
Had to rush through the bloody assignment last night. Super last minute, cause today early morning gotta hand in liao. Luckily its all over liao. Can have a short breather before i try to play catch up with tutorials... If i ever get to starting on it. Hee...
Life stories... Everyone has to grow up. Some take a longer time, some wake up their ideas fairly quickly. Guys don't suffer from the myraid of problems plaguing girls: No money buy clothes, today not pretty enough, how come he never call me, what should i eat later, do i look fat... yadda yadda, etc etc...
Guys: Money, family, girls. Simply put, we're simple. Haha... There are the jerks and there are the nice guys. I'm just generalizing. Money and family problems are uncontrollable. We don't have money. Full Stop. Family problems, cannot be helped, hard to solve with a single person's might/will.
Girl problems are self inflicted. Feel sad cause the girl is ignoring you. Feel pain cause you realise your gf no longer loves you/no time for you. Got rejected. So on so forth...
This kind of pain is fun but it hurts real bad. What's meant to be will be i guess. As if the girl knows you are going through all this torment.
I don't like this pointing of fingers. Just wanna write. And this topic just happened to come floating by.
Acherly, its cause someone i know is in pain lar. So i just wanna say. Cheer up!!
Saturday, March 04, 2006
Recently, hua was telling me say that my contents not very good. As a result, i hardly get readers, comments and tags. Does blogging really have to be so interactive?
I mean, it'll be great to have amazing viewership like so many other blogs, would be great to have many people tagging you...
Looking at my blog, i'm fairly satisfied. Its true the contents aren't very mass appeal, even mundane... But it's exactly what i'm thinking, i'm feeling. And basically, i write to muse, complain, scold at anyone and everyone. I don't write to please anyone, don't write for anyone.
Lose a game, i let flow a string of vulgarities, and get sore. I don't have the right to do it? I'm not even directing those vulgarities at anyone in particular. Concerned friends tell me say its just a game. I appreciate it, but i believe its a freedom kind of thing. And sad to say, i don't feel for a lot of things.
Hmm... Went jogging yesterday. Long time never jog, suddenly jog, like quite fun. Haha... Ric and Hua fit max. Run fast run long... Sian. Think maybe cause run too long too far liao, Hua become sot sot one... Tried to box me and Ric... I see liao very scared. Somemore same room. Haha...
Thursday, March 02, 2006
Finally finished the damn quiz and the stupid presentation. I is shack. Got another assignment due but really no mood that kind. And its totally, solely my fault. Cause i did nothing last week. Its payback time and i hate it.
And this week passed fast. How come tomorrow is friday i haven't figure out yet, but yes, tomorrow IS friday. And i'm still trying to get back to my comfort zone of doing nothing. This kind of laziness shock even myself. Haha...
I was at the airport last friday to send my parents off. When i was leaving the place, i saw throngs of small little kids, barely primary 1. Seemed like an excursion organised by their school.
They were laughing and jostling. Made to hold hands as they walk in pairs. Carefree, happy. Innocent laughters that kind. Something long forgotten, long lost by you and me. And i could almost remember how it felt like.
At that age, i used to play at the sand playground below my house with my friends after school. We would play catching, one leg and this amusing game called pepsi cola, where we try desperately to step on the other guy's leg.
Ever played this eraser game? Those erasers with countries' flags on it? haha...
There isn't any complicated feelings, confusing thoughts. All there was was just the want to have fun, the joy of playing a game, without another care in this world.
Since when have i been burdened by so many things. Of trying to make ends meet, of trying to play my part in the house, of so many many other things...
If this is part and parcel of growing up, i wanna be a kid again...
